Why can’t I create.
Or further more, I seem to be stuck in a state of non inspiration.
I am used to the so called “artists block” of being uninspired, and lacking in good ideas.
It happens to any creator from time to time.
But this time, although I am not inspired to create any specific concepts, I still have this desire to make art.
I have pages and pages of unfinished drawings that I halfheartedly started, but then my dislike of them became so strong I left them to die in a cruel half formed state of “unbeing”.
Metaphorically, it is like I keep starting the car but then I seem to just sit in it, and not go anywhere. But I want to go somewhere! I just can’t think of where! So why can’t I just walk away from the car and leave it for awhile?!
I am stuck in a horrible loop of feeling like I am spending all this time drawing worthless scraps of lines that I hate....
I have always wondered, for when artists are trapped in an art block, if it is better to let themselves have a good long break, or push through it and keep trying. Personally, I usually can give myself a break, and then start back up when I am inspired again.
Not this time.
I have never been stuck in such a strange loop of feeling inspiration, but not knowing why or what from, and therefore not knowing what to create...and so end up creating these half formed chimera drawings...
I feel like I don’t really have a choice in the matter either. I can’t stop drawing. For some reason, this time, even though it feels like a waste of time to keep making things I hate....I feel like I can’t stop.
So to the outside world, while it might seem like I have not been creating at all... I assure you that is not the case. I just am unhappy with everything I am making recently.
I think....I will try a different media, or a change of scenery. Something new might refresh my mind. I don’t know.
Does anyone have a suggestion for what helps them? If you have any ideas, let me know...
I think I need to start posting in progress works and things i’m not always happy about. Maybe that will be a good thing. Progress is not always pretty, after all.
It's like when you want to look good for just going to the gym. That isn't the point. A lot of not so pretty hard work goes into being in shape.
And in drawing, it can take making a lot of ugly lines before they are twined together into an illustration I am proud of.
Maybe being unhappy with what I am making now, will continue to force me to try new things and learn more. So maybe.....this is a good thing.